Tanya hati, jangan tanya akal

Perselisihan faham itu lumrah. Terpulang pada kita, how to handle that argument. Sometimes, an argument dikatakan dapat mengeratkan hubungan. In such a way that, couple will realize how they need each other when they're away from each other and no phone calls, no "good morning, cinta" sms, no "good night, mimpi aku" sms. That really are killing! LOL.

But our recent argument, really open my eyes and it make me realize how much i need him. Every words he said really "knocked" my head. Dengan tenang, dia cakap "tanya hati, jangan tanya akal sebab akal akan menipu...". I silent, for a few seconds. and I murmured, I need you. Seriously, i didn't planned it all....for some reason, i really asked my heart. and my that was heart who "answered" his question. Tell u the truth, it was amazing......

Seriously, i never thought this relationship will work but now, i really want to make it happened. No matter what happened, hopefuly, dengan izin Allah, I really want to make this happened.

Get it right (i just want to fix it somehow)

What have I done
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Coz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
how many times will it take for me
To get it right, To get it right

Can I start again
With my faith shaken
'Cuz I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this


What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
But how many times will it take for me
To get it right

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
I sent out wish, I sent up a prayer
Then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Oh my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take, how many times will it take
To get it right,To get it right


----my best intention is to make things right between us. nothing more, nothing less. No matter how many times i said that "i'm a locked door.." but somehow, u've found the key to unlock it. I know, things doesn't went well between us, but i'm trying best, the best of me. If that's doesn't good enough, I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I just want you to understand that, I want to spend the rest of my life to be loved by you......

I'm Sorry

Aku minta maaf, utk hati yg aku sakiti...
Aku minta maaf, utk semua kata-kata "jahat" yg keluar dari mulut aku...
Aku minta maaf, utk smua perkataan yg "beria-ia"
Aku minta maaf, utk semua hati yg aku sakiti...
Aku minta maaf, sebab terlalu kedekut memberi peluang....
Aku minta maaf, utk semua salah sangka dari aku...
Aku minta maaf, sbb terlalu "berhati-hati"....
Aku minta maaf, sbb hati terlalu keras utk aku terima kata maaf...

ketahuilah....aku ada sebab yg kukuh untuk semua itu....

S . E . N . S . I . T. I . V . E

Sensitive?? Yes, i am sensitive. Its my nature. Tapi, my sesitivity level is under controlled. Aku kuat merajuk sebenarnya......this week only, aku berperang dengan emosi. Mana lagi hal anak, soal perasaan, kawan, kerja....semuanya bercampur aduk. pening.....dan kemuncaknya bila melibatkan soal anak. Poor Ariff.......

The most hurting part is, when org yg kita sayang, tidak ambil peduli keadaan kita masa tu..masih lagi boleh bergurau...masih lagi boleh bergembira dgn org lain....sakit hati bila tidak kena peduli......

Langit menangis

Lamanya aku tidak post apa2 dlm ruangan ni. suddenly, March is very "cruel" to me. i have been fighting with emotion dan betul2 mencabar mental aku untuk berfikir secara rasional dan waras. Well, i'm very rasional person. I tried my very hard to put my mind to stick together. i know its hard but nothing can beat God's decision. well, suddenly, i don't know how to react. suddenly, i dont know how to communicate with my brain. suddenly, i dont know how to put things to make it logical. everything seems...urrggghhh...i dont what the worst word to explain this situation. i hope everything is going to be fine...

10 Things I hate about you (or more)

I hate the way you show your temper
I hate when you use the bad words, cursing other people
I hate the name you give to my car -- *my-passo-vi*
I hate when you always have a short notice outstation
I hate when you wear your white shoes, you look like a gay in that shoes
I hate when you make fun of my favorite song
I hate when you always complaining my obsession towards happy ending love story
I hate when you copy my jokes and telling other people its your joke
I hate when you make fun to my Tiramisu story

----you know what I hate you the most ? --

I hate when you are always right, i hate when you always there, saving my ass from some jerks, I hate when you told me "don't" and I won't listen, then you will said to me "I told you so....."

i have 10 minutes!