i'm not sick. just a bit unwell :(

Senarai penyakit c Izah pada bulan Jun...
- sakit tekak
- severe sinus
- sakit kepala
- sakit gigi
- malas mandi
- malas berfikir
- malas mau cari gaduh
- malas bangun pagi
- malas masak
- malas cuci kain
- malas cuci kereta (mcm dr bulan january lg kereta ku maintain color oren cmpur cokelat)
- malas mau jadi insan peramah
- malas lipat selimut
- malas lipat kain (smua pun main sangkut sja)
- malas wipe off mekap (terus tidur..)
- tiba-tiba aku rajin pi family recreation centre (join c ariff naik Doraemon, bus mini..etc)
- aku suda malas baca buku. (i have 4 novels yg belum kna baca..)
- tiba-tiba aku rajin baca buku resipi, tapi nda juga pandai2 memasak..
- suddenly aku pandai meninguk cerita Raja Lawak...pandai ketawa-ketawa lagi tu...
- suddenly, i dont feel like to watch How i met your mother. (susah mau berebut channel sbnrnya..)

byk sebenarnya penyakit baru aku yg timbul semenjak dua menjak ni...i still want to figure out why? who caused it? when exactly its started to happen.....

p/s: if u have 2 seperate FB account, can u please do not "friend" ur own other account?? its will blow everything up... (tiada kaitan kan..but i still want to write it down...heheheheh)

Adios!

A: Sampai Bila? B: Sampai tiada........

A: Kenapa?
B: Nothing, saja tertanya-tanya...
A: Kenapa tertanya-tanya?
B: Entah, runsing kali...
A: Kenapa mesti runsing?
B: Mungkin ada rasa takut....
A: Takut? Why should you?
B: Nothing, just maybe....terlalu banyak kemungkinan
A: Jadi, macam mana? teruskan?
B: I don't know...how about you?
A: Aku mau teruskan...I want to see the ending of this story....
B: Ok, kita teruskan...I want to see the ending of this story too...
A: Sampai bila....?
B: Sampai tiada........

-- Thats how it goes. Our conversation is simple. its just a matter of understand each other. we both have the same goal. We want to see the ending of this story. You don't get it do you? but that's us. thats how we communicate. Only him and me can understand :) Like what he said "Simple make things beautiful..."

Tanya hati, jangan tanya akal

Perselisihan faham itu lumrah. Terpulang pada kita, how to handle that argument. Sometimes, an argument dikatakan dapat mengeratkan hubungan. In such a way that, couple will realize how they need each other when they're away from each other and no phone calls, no "good morning, cinta" sms, no "good night, mimpi aku" sms. That really are killing! LOL.

But our recent argument, really open my eyes and it make me realize how much i need him. Every words he said really "knocked" my head. Dengan tenang, dia cakap "tanya hati, jangan tanya akal sebab akal akan menipu...". I silent, for a few seconds. and I murmured, I need you. Seriously, i didn't planned it all....for some reason, i really asked my heart. and my that was heart who "answered" his question. Tell u the truth, it was amazing......

Seriously, i never thought this relationship will work but now, i really want to make it happened. No matter what happened, hopefuly, dengan izin Allah, I really want to make this happened.

Get it right (i just want to fix it somehow)

What have I done
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is
On my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Coz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
how many times will it take for me
To get it right, To get it right

Can I start again
With my faith shaken
'Cuz I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay
And face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser
I'll get through this


What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
'Cuz my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take
But how many times will it take for me
To get it right

So I throw up my fist, throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
I sent out wish, I sent up a prayer
Then finally someone will see how much I care

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down
Oh my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just want to fix it somehow
But how many times will it take, how many times will it take
To get it right,To get it right


----my best intention is to make things right between us. nothing more, nothing less. No matter how many times i said that "i'm a locked door.." but somehow, u've found the key to unlock it. I know, things doesn't went well between us, but i'm trying best, the best of me. If that's doesn't good enough, I'm sorry....I'm sorry....I just want you to understand that, I want to spend the rest of my life to be loved by you......

I'm Sorry

Aku minta maaf, utk hati yg aku sakiti...
Aku minta maaf, utk semua kata-kata "jahat" yg keluar dari mulut aku...
Aku minta maaf, utk smua perkataan yg "beria-ia"
Aku minta maaf, utk semua hati yg aku sakiti...
Aku minta maaf, sebab terlalu kedekut memberi peluang....
Aku minta maaf, utk semua salah sangka dari aku...
Aku minta maaf, sbb terlalu "berhati-hati"....
Aku minta maaf, sbb hati terlalu keras utk aku terima kata maaf...

ketahuilah....aku ada sebab yg kukuh untuk semua itu....

S . E . N . S . I . T. I . V . E

Sensitive?? Yes, i am sensitive. Its my nature. Tapi, my sesitivity level is under controlled. Aku kuat merajuk sebenarnya......this week only, aku berperang dengan emosi. Mana lagi hal anak, soal perasaan, kawan, kerja....semuanya bercampur aduk. pening.....dan kemuncaknya bila melibatkan soal anak. Poor Ariff.......

The most hurting part is, when org yg kita sayang, tidak ambil peduli keadaan kita masa tu..masih lagi boleh bergurau...masih lagi boleh bergembira dgn org lain....sakit hati bila tidak kena peduli......

Langit menangis

Lamanya aku tidak post apa2 dlm ruangan ni. suddenly, March is very "cruel" to me. i have been fighting with emotion dan betul2 mencabar mental aku untuk berfikir secara rasional dan waras. Well, i'm very rasional person. I tried my very hard to put my mind to stick together. i know its hard but nothing can beat God's decision. well, suddenly, i don't know how to react. suddenly, i dont know how to communicate with my brain. suddenly, i dont know how to put things to make it logical. everything seems...urrggghhh...i dont what the worst word to explain this situation. i hope everything is going to be fine...